Table of Contents
1 Introduction 1
2 Early Signs? 5
The Flame 6
Snowdrops 8
The Funeral and Cheap Trick 9
The White Feather 10
The Bedside Lights 11
The Feather on the Train 12
3 Living in the Moment 13
4 Photographs 15
5 Mediums 17
16 February 19
Cornflowers and Slippers 20
Picasso 21
Orbs and Flowers 22
Green Earrings 23
6 The Montblanc Pen 26
7 Meditation 28
8 First WhatsApps 31
9 Bereavement Counselling 35
10 The WhatsApp Groups 37
11 Patrick 40
12 Sand and Consciousness 42
Quantum Effects 43
The Mystery of Consciousness 44
Time and Memory 45
13 Birds I 48
14 The Rizla Papers 51
15 Illness 53
16 Feathers 56
17 Early 2020 and a New Start 59
The First Anniversary and Chinese Food 60
18 Lockdown 62
19 Later WhatsApps 64
20 Flying Books 67
21 Birds II 69
22 The Missing Playing Card 71
23 Lights 73
24 Happiness 75
25 The Second Anniversary 77
Two New WhatsApp Groups 78
BulliesOut 79
26 Ducks in a Row 82
27 Epilogue 84
Time Line 87
References and Notes 89
